Cold Freezer

2010-05-26T20:57:00.000-07:00

Woooh, its been 5 months!! i wil review some of my goals and dream.

I think I have lost 4kg? He he everyone says i lose some weight, maybe because i ate more vegetables and noodles instead of meat and rice. Now I am very into healthy food, I like fresh and avoid soft drinks and fast food and french fries. I dont really like oily food anymore, i think its good.

Especially since all these are causes of cancer, my distant relatives have diabetes and tumour, so if i dont take care of my health i might get it too.

When I am reaching 30, what are my worries.. of course relationship haha..will i ever get married, all my close friends and best friends has moved on, I am super happy for them but i also feel the worry that creeps in. This is my torn in my flesh at 2010.

But I am happy that my brother baptised! It was unexpected and truly a gift from God. I know this will be a great year!! Because i will turn 27 and its my lucky number :) besides 13.. reasons because both are my birth dates. One is my physical birthdate and the other my spiritual birthdate ^^

I will look at life this year positively!!

Okay i am gonna slash some of my dream cause it has come true or some a little hard to achieve this year!! ^^

2010-01-05T23:18:00.000-08:00

Resolution 2010

things i want to do in 2010

1 Read the Bible everyday and pray to God many times in a day to feel His presence.
2 Exercise on being Patient; when thing do not go the right directions (times when i need to scream, let me be silent)
3 Smile more, talk less, listen more.
4 Count my blessings everyday.
5 ~~Save a fixed amount $$$ for a house in Batam~~Moved to 2012
6 ~~Have a personal business plan drafted by June 2010.~~Moved to 2012
7 Lose ~~10 Kg~~5Kg!!
8 ~~Play Badminton once a week.~~ Will Jog instead..:P
9 Love people.
10 Build new friendship and create deeper bond with the old friends.
11 Have more single's hangout
12 Travel to Korea in Autumn
13 Fruitful in mission (17 April 2010, my brother got baptised!)
14 ~~Finish Korean language programme from the online lessons- Sogang~~ no time :(
15 Celebrate BIG party!! woohoo for my 27th Bday ^^

2009-12-17T21:58:00.000-08:00

Picture of you

As I sketch a picture of you
My heart skips a beat or two
Just the thought of you
makes me smile like a fool.

It seems silly though
how you can stay in my mind
an image that cant be bought
so one of a kind

Though we seldom
meet face to face
your image is enough
to keep me in place
But will it be enough hmm
without your real presence
to embrace

2009-12-17T01:29:00.000-08:00

A Beautiful Mess. J.Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

2009-12-09T10:00:00.001-08:00

Its 1.30am in the morning and i find it hard to close my eyes.

Tears seems to keep streaming out from my eyes and its clogging my nasal and making it harder to breath.

The night felt so dark and quiet that i can feel my heart throbbing in anguish and aches.

Thinking back, is it worth to love?

When all you get at the end of the day are just heart-aches and puffy eyes.

Yes, yes here it goes again, I feel the way I felt when my fb went steady. Or discovering the sober truth about someone i like, likes someone else.

I am just wondering, whose fault is it? Isn't love made to be beautiful? But its so hard when you keep on loving with no returns.

Yes, yes, look at the Lord, He did it. That's how I find Jesus is so great and His love is an agape love. He can love everyone and die for all of us despite knowing the facts that some of us may not feel the same way.

But now I am focusing on my own pain, instead of looking up on Him i look down on myself. Here you go again, another false hope. Another heart ache. Another feeling of abandonement.

I just need to get this out of my chest, so that i can breath again, so i can move on. I have been here before, many times, I should know how to cope with this feeling.

But will this make me continue to fall for the same thing? To let my heart be bare, to let someone touch it and makes me fall in love again and again..but at the end of it will i get hurt again when that someone chooses someone else.

What a battle, but I cant help to feel this way. I am a mere human who is made to love, to feel, to care, to admire, shall i stop it so that i will not get hurt anymore, or should I continue till I leave this earth.

With that effect, yes, I know you have been avoiding me, please dont do that..I have moved on as well so we can still be friends :) and dont worry whatever you did for me, I know its because you love me as Jesus did and I will not mistaken it or be misled by your friendship.

With the others that had been creating opportunities for us..please dont do that.. especially when it is not mutual, because you will end up hurting people like me :) and all those teasing and all those poking, please stop (unless its mutual ah, then i get the sign.. >"<)!! The Bible talks about building each other up !!

Okay now I can go to sleep already. I feel so much better!! HaAAAAHhhhh (get it all out of my chest!!)

ps: for the rest that reads, please excuse me, I am just being emo..

2009-12-02T21:34:00.001-08:00

Single retreat was very inspiring!! It challenge me not to assume that getting married is what complete us as a woman. I guess it has helped me a lot to deal with the yearning to find a life companion. Being in the Kingdom, we have this Heaven on Earth experience. In Heaven I don't think we are married to anyone but Christ and that's how it should be now since we have our brothers and sisters.

Thankfully I went for the single retreat, they should have this every year! I can say that my attitude about friendship with brothers changed after this. I no longer only build friendship for a reason but for the facts that God loves and therefore I need to imitate His love. Of course friendship with sisters I have no problem building. I guess its my pride too for holding back my love as a sister for the brothers.

Singleness does not equate us with loneliness, we can be single yet contented! I had a lot of spiritual buffet during the retreat and it quench my lonely soul.. I realize at one junction in time we will be bound to be alone. Just watching Beaches helps me to be grateful for all my best friends and I want to make more effort to be there, to be your CC Bloom!! ^^

I have been reading "The Five People You Meet in Heaven" and I am thinking that, yes! everyone I know, God has placed them for a reason, to teach me lessons, to help me grow and molded into what He wants me to be. We were all created for a reason and that itself has helped me to feel special.

2009-11-25T19:05:00.000-08:00

I just feeling much better now, maybe because many things are beginning to settle in.

Past few days I have been overwhelmed with all the planning, leading, organizing, and it get to the point where I want things to work out well and i just couldnt sit and wait for things to happen.

Maybe the instinct of being in leadership, makes me take charge to ensure everything will be okay, to make sure the team can win.

I didnt realise with these responsibility its also a time for humility. To get people to help and to work together as a team. Many of the responsibility i try to shoulder but when the outcome doesnt come out as how i wanted it too i get very dissapointed.

Oh well i am glad many of such are over and there is no point being discourage of not winning, just look at the brighter side of the story and that many has been a great lessons from God.

I am still learning..everyday.. now more aware that God is in control.

Anyway looking forward for single retreat and fellowships, i want to have more friendships in the singles with brothers and sisters and i am excited with some new found friends!!

2009-11-24T21:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went to the specs shop, but nobody was there to service me, for about 10 minutes i was walking here and there and a man asked me "Do you need anything? Feel free to browse and I will get back to you" then he went to serve other customers.

I don't really feel very comfortable as he didn't come to serve me, like asking me to sit and maybe he can take time to go through with me which type of specs will be nice for my face.. Hmm was I expecting too much??

In the end he came back again to me and said "I am sorry today we are short of people, not that we do not want to serve you but feel free to choose which type and I will get it for you"

I stood there for about 1 minute and decided not to take any chance to wait so that I wont need to face any disappointment.

I find my self dealing a lot in that type of situations right now. The feeling of rejection, abandonment, lead me to stop trying too hard, to stop waiting for something. What if the effort its not worth it? What if its just my own thinking/feeling? What if everything is not as good as I thought it will become?

Today message from God says that I should stop worrying about the future, each day has enough trouble of its own. Tomorrow will worry about itself.You have God so you can stop worrying, for worry doesn't change anything in fact in diminish our faith and trust in God.

2009-11-23T00:44:00.000-08:00

My vision are getting worst each day, I think I need to get specs!!

TT I dread getting one as my face is so square, it never good with any kind of specs. But i kinda like the geeky look so perhaps i will that..

Did some editting on how i would look like with one these geeky glasses.

2009-11-19T20:08:00.000-08:00

Check out my Travel Blog!! Haha but skin only.. not yet update any stories..

2009-11-19T12:07:00.000-08:00

Decided to take last minute leave to unwind.

Besides the point i cant seems to go to sleep yesterday, was tossing and turning around, many things on my mind that were driving me nuts!!

Most of it is because everyone seems to be moving on in life. And i just felt alone and scared that i will spend the rest of my life without somebody besides me when i go to sleep. The feeling is more real now than before and i dun like to deal with this because its showing my weakness.But i know its at this time God supposed to be nearby to tuck me to sleep and He is besides me everyday of my life. Worry of life sometimes clouded our vision of God.

---side point
Christmas around the corner, i have made a list of people to give presents to as well as cards prepared to write some encouragements. I have to start early as i will be leaving to spend time with my family on the 26th December till 5th Jan~

I miss them so much!! And i do feel this year i am able to have more communication with my parents over the phone than before, appreciate them calling at least once a week to let me know how they have been..

This year i wanna be super encouraging towards them and show them my love and not to get easily frustrated, i thank God that even though the year has been rough; with my sis gotten ill and having diabetes and incurring many cash loss due to medical bills, but more on emotional roller coaster and worried that she might nearly lost her life, at that point of time i realised money doesnt really matter!!

But it got me to think also that i need to get insurance to protect myself in case anything happened to me, my parents would not be able to help, but i will still have some money to survive.

I used to be bitter about my family situations and how i seems to be the only one able to support the rest, sometimes i want to save only for myself.. my schema of abandonment leaves me fending for my own right and security.

But i realise God puts me in all these situations to learn that my family is still my family and eventhough i could have lost all kind of security and comfort life, i couldnt bear to lose my loved ones, my dear family.

2009-11-18T00:29:00.000-08:00

i wish i could peep into the future and see which path did i take, and coming back to the present to change whatever necessary =P

often i find Life is pulling my legs,i am like a bunch of balloons hold by my dear Life, one time Life pulls me closer, and another time Life let me go

which one should i feel better? being hold on to and having that safety feeling "I will never let you go" or being let loose so i can feel the breeze and know i am free to fly, but that may leave me feeling empty and being let go

dear dear..why am i succumbing to this miserable hole

i cant hardly see the light, i think i should climb out of this hole and breath the fresh air and feel the breeze and welcome the warmth of the sun

and know that no matter how Life treats me

God is still in control of the greater things

2009-11-16T01:45:00.000-08:00

i am in confusion, i need some decision
i asked God, so is this my desire plus your plan
or my desire plus my own way

could i be staying on the safe side of the road
or assuming to much

i don't really like to deal with this feeling right now
honestly i have never expected there will be this dejavu
is this a good thing? or just some kind of testing?

God, i told you before about my dream
but now you pours something that
i dun even know how to receive it

2009-11-16T00:15:00.000-08:00

i have a new blogskin.

i had to, the previous skin's owner has not been visiting her account for 90days, so Photobucket has taken down her skin, so i was surprised to find my blog today dressed in Photobucket's logo.

yEew..so not cool.

LOL.

so i took sometime to create my own graphic..guarantee this kind of thing wont happen again.

anyway i did some clean up of my blogs and past posts..LOL and i found some really insteresting stuff tat i wrote before..I am quite amuse with my own wittiness..(self praised?..)

so I put them back for old time sake.

reminiscing.

2009-11-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

Experience is that marvellous thing
that enable you to recognize a mistake
when you make it again.

Bravery is being the only one
who knows you're afraid.

Love doesn't make the world go 'round.
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

Franklin P Jones~

in my heart

I don't wish to be everything to everyone,
but I would like to be something to someone.

Javan~

so...

We come to love not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Sam Keen~

finally..

Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you
I had no control over.
Unknown~

2009-11-12T06:17:00.004-08:00

have u ever felt like screaming out loud but you know you couldnt do so??

excitement, frustration
dream, hope, expectation
wishes, desire...

i am having so much feelings right now
positives
negatives
even nonchalant

at this moment
i feel like screaming...

2009-11-09T23:09:00.000-08:00

When you are infatuated, suddenly you take great interest in whatever he does well.

Your world spins around;the time he goes to bed; the time he has his dinner; or when he goes online..

You seems to know his schedule and plans and likings.

You have become obsessed!

Oh be careful dear self, you cant make him your God.

2009-11-03T23:07:00.001-08:00

You are wasting so much time. Painting beautiful pictures about who you would like to be. Cant you see the whole world doesn't revolve around your being.

Instead, be true to those who truly cares for you.

As it matters to me to know you are okay deep inside.

2009-05-31T20:17:00.001-07:00

Yoo Hoo I am back from Bangkok trip. Okay actually i was back like a week ago hahaha.

Alright people, tomorrow i am going to hand in my Resignation letter. Whats the best timing?? I was thinking of passing in at 3 pm, after lunch, Boss will be sleepy and stomach comforted, less alert and angry...BRrrRrr Wish me lots of luck!! Hee hee and pray for me!!

Okay will update more later..Check out my travel blog for my bangkok trip, that is if i have updated. Hahaha

Later!!!

Its been 6 months

2009-05-15T09:54:00.000-07:00

Wow its been six months?? Since i last pen down something. Time really flies. Today is Sasha's Bday!! Happy Birthday gal!! I am so glad to have a great friend like her.

We are going on a holiday!! Yay together..Its kinda a tradition to go on a yearly trip with her. I hope to go on many more, even though she might probably get married soon..hmm still bonding time with girlfriends are very good!

We went on 2 trips together so far, just the two of us, the first was to KL and second to Kuantan to the beach heehee this time we have a bit more budget so we going to Thailand, Bangkok, SHOPPING!!!!.

Haiz, was reading my past blog, i was thinking of quitting my job but guess what, haha yah I am still stuck with this job. I just plain lazy to try on interview, been having lots of excuses like i need a laptop to showcase my portfolio, i need time to go for interview, been thinking a lot these days, I mean being contented with my life is one thing, but is it really wrong to have financial freedom? Financial stability, somemore living alone, i have to fend for my future, housing, my parents and siblings.

Lots on my mind and been doing a lot of more meaningful readings and some financial readings too, how to plan to save and getting mortgage for my house doing investment, i always think all this are boring stuff but i manage to finish reading this book called "Love is not enough. The smart woman's guide to money" Heh got nothing to do with romance or emo.. Its really a great book that has lots and lots of great advise and very very easy to read!! I am not a bookworm but i finished it in three days!!! Its by Merryn Somerset Webb. Go read it and be inspired.

Love love!!

2008-12-17T03:30:00.001-08:00

Just came back from a very awesome teens retreat.

Its been a year since I joined the Youth Ministry, when I first joined as a teen worker, I was really struggling to find friendship and relationships, but I can say that before the year 2009 closes, I am so happy to be in the teens ministry.

Despite the many heartaches and hopes that were crushed,I am so glad i stick on. To see the hearts of teens changing and their pure hearted love for God, just warm my heart.

I am so touched and inspired by God's work in the teens, He has really blesses us with so many victories this year. I need to thank Him for really just taking care of the girls, many times I was so distracted with my works that I do not have time to build on my spirituality and the spiritualities of my girls, I am sorry. I really hope i can do more.

Thats why i have decided to quit my hectic job and find a lesser taxing job, in this kind of time will i be able to?? But if God's willing It will be so.

I am so excited about 2009, how my girls are all going to JCs and Polys, no doubt many other struggles will emerge but I believe they will also gains some victories, if they manage to overcome the challenges.

Next year I will come out with resolutions, past two years i have never come out with any, i always though resolutions are just a decision of one day, if i really want to do it i dont have to write it down i will just do it, but come to think of it these two years without resolution i havent achieve many goals.. so I decided i still have to write it down, kinda to remind myself of my determination to achieve it.

So so..thats why i am so excited!!

Oh yah i really enjoy this year retreat, really AWESOME and also the extended retreat, really have so much bonding time!!

2008-09-27T19:32:00.000-07:00

Hi been so long since i update myself, lol its always just new songs and music video.

I am now 25. Wow times really flies.

Morning i had a bible study Karling and i feel so much closer to her after the study, i am so glad that she opens up about her life. Xiaozhou is really awesome!! So proud of her cause she so evangelistic!, even though now is O level but she still has the heart for her friends.

After tat i supposed to meet Felicia for spending time. But i wasnt expecting the girls to have a surprised bday for me at the park behind Punggol Plaza!! Wow so encouraged but also got sabo big time so that part was not so encouraging T.T lol(just kidding) and i had sharings.. wow i love sharings!! cause my love language is words of affirmation so i feel so loved with the sharings!! Thanks gals for being there i love you lots and for those who wants to be tehre but cant its okay i can feel your love and yours cards and chocolates comforts me!!

Actually i was on diet but they gave me chocolates, every single one of them, now there is too much chocolates in my room...ah!!! but anyway i know the girls meant well, veron say chocolate=love so they love me hahahah.

The most encouraging and touching was when Felicia told me , that my sis wanted to be there for my bday and she has come out with this ideas to encourage me, reminds me of the PS I LOVE YOU movie but of course different story line, i feel so touched and love!! I miss my sis!! But i know God taking care of hr in Batam.

Went to have pizza at Holland V in the evening of my bday, Sha's friend recommend tat place. It was a really nice place and after dinner , more sharings!! Then we went to Wala Wala, i heard the guys mentioned this place before but i didnt know its in Holland. Had a good time there listening to the music and chill-in. I must admit the singer has a great voice, although it will be nicer if she can wear a little cooler cloths.. lol image does give a different kind of perspective, but no doubt she is awesome!!

Previously the sister teen workers also did a mini sharing and cake and Yingjun brought my sis and i to Manhattan, hehe yummy seafood platters.

That sums up my bday this year, though many are watching F1 i am so glad they still can come for my bday in the midst of it, thank you, that meant so much to me. Actually i was expecting so much lesser ppl as F1 is so happening.. lol

I hope next year F1 wont fall on the same day again. T.T

2008-09-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

Love this video :)

2008-08-25T19:37:00.000-07:00

Heya, I am back from KL. It was really a good getaway with just the teen workers!! Kinda build our friendship and make us closer to one another.

Have a great time doing QT together at A&W first thing at 6 am, we touched down after the 10 hours train ride from Singapore. Very de zonk and tired, but was refreshed by the cold morning air and smell of hot piping waffles from A&W!!, how i wish Singapore still have A&W, yummy curly fries and rootbeer float..

Ying Jun cam with a car and bring us to a nice park in KL i forgot the name haha but it was a nice park with a pond in the middle, we prayed very long..wow its been a while since i spend whole morning just being with God and each other.

After that we had our second breakfast..lol Dimsums.

Then we went to YingJun's former University, it was quite a ride all the way to the border that is going to Seramban. She said the Uni changed a lot already. Kinda cool for waicheng and i as we got to know life in KL, from the two KL-ians (Yi Ming & Ying Jun)

Then we get hungry again haha and proceed for lunch, we ate the famous Malaysia black noodles (nice black sauce)

Then we check in at One World (5 stars hotel near One Utama), I must say its really nice!!! Then we took a nap.

Waicheng and i were quite enthusiast on checking the mall next door, huge mall, so we went for a window shopping, while the two KL-ians continue to enjoy the R&R in the hotel..

Later in the evening we met Ying Jun's Dad and had a great time having dinner at one of the famous food market in KL, sorry no name again, i dont take note where it was, And we had stingray, asam laksa, satays, curry fish head, rojak, cockles and ice kachang for dessert, very Full filing time..lol.

We head back to Hotel for shower and watch Midnight show just located next to the Hotel, the One Utama, Its a very huge shopping mall!! We watch WALL-E!! haha so excited because in Sngapore is not out yet..

I want to let you guys know that WALL-E is awesome, so make sure you dont miss it!! Worth the watch, even worthier for us cause we only spend RM9 which is $4!!

After the show, Yiming's sister brought us to the famouse dimsum's place near their neigbourhood, so we get to see Ying Jun's and Yiming's territories..lol.

Yummy supper, we really hit and cross our limit of calories intake..gosh for us we are also shock at how much food we can gobbled in a day..so amusing..who says sisters cant eat a lot, i just fake it sometimes.. lol

Next day is kinda last day in KL. We had sumptuous buffet in the morning for breakfast (pictures will come in soon)It also comes with a nice price to it..but its okay, we are there to enjoy!! Being Asians, we took the liberty to eat as many varieties as we can, so that its worth it mah, but i saw some angmohs they just eat two slice of bread for breakfast even though it cost them RM40 for the breakfast..yeeh so not worth it haha i very the kiasu lar..think greedy also.. oops.

After the heavy breakfast we had a first century service, waicheng shared lessons and we had communions.. Then we spend the time fellowhippings. After which we checkout of the Hotel and proceed for more shoppings!!

We took a bus back from Aeroline, hehe i must say, its very the highclass even got a steward to serve the food and make drinks for us.

Thats all for the journey in KL. Pictures will be posted soon.

(BTW our main aim to KL was to eat so that explain that many food intakes that we had daily, dont worry after this we will be back to our diet..lol)

2008-08-04T03:13:00.000-07:00

I watched "Music and Lyric" by Grant and Barrymore yesterday. I love it!. Its so romantic. Lol.Been listening to this song almost thirty times. No kidding.

Way back into love.

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

2008-07-30T20:46:00.000-07:00

I have been sleeping less than 3 hours these 3 days.

Total awake hours:63 Hours
Total asleep hours:9 Hours

I have officially entered the TWILIGHT ZONE.
X file music playing in the background...

TOTAL ZONKED!

2008-07-27T19:47:00.000-07:00

I love One Republic!!

Stop and Stare- One Republic

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

2008-07-24T20:29:00.000-07:00

Tercipta Untukku (You are created for me)

TerciptaUntukku

I really like this song..^^ although it sounds selfish, lol "created for me".

Here's the lyric:

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Looking at your beautiful smile on your face
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Made me quiet and astounded
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Knowing there will be wonderful love coming
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
When you hug me closely

Banyak kata
Too many words
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
That i could not express
Kepada dirimu
Towards you

Aku ingin engkau slalu
I want you to always
Hadir dan temani aku
be present and accompany me
Disetiap langkah
in all my ways
Yang meyakiniku
What got me assured
Kau tercipta untukku
You are made for me
Sepanjang hidupku
Throughout my life

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Though time has a way
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
to call me back home
Ku ingin kau tau
i want you to know
Kuslalu milikmu
I am yours
Yang mencintaimu
who love you
Sepanjang hidupku
throughout my entire life

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu

2008-07-22T23:16:00.000-07:00

Just to update, she really left with my money, $50, sobbed. Sigh* i "kenna" conned.

I learn today that only we ourselves know our spirit, and only God, Himself knows His Spirit, and we have His Spirit, so by right what lives in us is no longer our spirit but His. Wow that kinda remind me to respect my own body and treat is as Holy.

No one in the world can comprehend God's Wisdom and message except those that has His Spirit cause the Bible says its foolishness to them but wisdom for those whom God has called, for those whom He has chosen to love. Basically everyone who sees His message as a great treasure and not foolishness.

To be Spiritual, God's Spirit needs to be the one leading our lives.

ps: I like the weather today, cold and raining. ^^

2008-07-10T19:37:00.000-07:00

I do struggles with insecurity.

Something happened yesterday, i met a friend of my friend(which she barely knew) that came to look for a job. Since she was a stranger, there were some doubts that i have about her. Eventhough she seems nice from the outside, i shall not elaborate further, you can ask me personally if you want to know.

What discourage me was the fact that she made a comment before we parted that night.It wasnt a direct comment but one would have known where her remarks were going to.

She said that the first time she met me (which was a couple of hours ago), i was not the way she expected me to be, tall and skinny. (Indeed the first time i saw her i could she see she was shocked to see me, i was wondering what was wrong with me?)Well i took that comment as neutral but she went on explaining that when she saw me; i am round and chubby, funny and reminded her of her cousin who always talk funnily (words that doesnt make sense to her and she find it funny)and she continued saying that its ok she likes humble and simple people and she won't judge by outward appearance.Doesnt mean pretty has good heart. <<- uhh well guess what? she already did! aghh..(i was a little mad in my heart)

Wow.. if she is my friend or good friend i wouldnt mind her comment in joking tone. But i just knew her and from the tone of her voice it was all serious. So i went home that night feeling very insecure, am i really that fat, funny(this one understand la), talk things that people cant seems to understand..ah i was really so insecure.. Maybe she is just the type of person who is very direct in her speech.

So i went home and told my sister all about it. And this morning i woke up to find a card, telling me how much she loves me for who i am and i should not be discourage of think too much about that comments. It really brighten up my day~~ and God kinda remind me of what Samuel told the people "The Lord doesnt look at the outward appearance like men do, but He looks at the heart" So i took comfort the fact that God treasures me for who i am, and besides i was created this way~ God's my artist, if i despised myself i am saying His art is lousy, so i humbly accept that comment but cause its not the issue of Salvation or character growth, i shall not take it personally.

2008-07-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

Hellooo world.

I have been quite reserve lately. Basically did a lot of things these past month. Went to Korea for a holiday. I have never imagine i am able to travel that far in my whole life. Hehe so i always thought reserve next time when i go on honey moon to Paris (if i am ever gonna get married, if not i will still go with my buddies!!). Anyway I really thank God for His blessing!! I saved two years for this trip. It was worthed it~

But recently i have been so in love with Korea's culture and life that i am learning Korean language. Go to Korea. Eat lots of Kimchis. Watching their dramas. Well that indeed make me a die hard fan.

Life been much in control lately, arranged some reverse date, i need to go on more reverse date.. must humble myself.Cheap but fun reverse date, sorry cash is low these days. So i need to be more outwardly focus so that i wont be inwardly focus. I tend to do that a lot..of self pity.. urghh!

Anyway the last date was fun, we had picnic at botanical garden. :) Nice place, photo coming up soon!! It was to encourage bekah also, cuz want to build friendship with her, i thought we are hitting on the right tracks, been eating lots of food together too! i guess food really bond people together..lol

Btw i think i need to be more friendly to people. Heh.Just some random thought.

2008-05-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

BIG BANG!!

2008-03-25T00:09:00.000-07:00

Title: A Trip to the Sea, 바다여행
Singer: Tearliner (Featuring Hee Jung Han)
Lyrics Translation by Sang / also credit: http://kreah-craze.com

바다여행

아주먼 어느날
이햇살은 아름다운
너에게로 떠났던
내 여행을 기억해줘
아주먼 바닷가
저 하늘가 어딘가에
너와나의 소중한
추억들을 간직해줘
눈부시게 푸르른
너는내게 바다인걸
손내밀면 하얗게
부서지던 너의꿈들
긴여행을 떠나려해
아주깊은 바다여행
부드런 은빛물결
몸을싣고 너에게로
눈부시게 푸르른
너는내게 바다인걸
손내밀면 하얗게
부서지던 너의미소
너도알아 내가널
아주많이 사랑하는
포근하게 감싸줘 나에게
아아아아아아아아아
아아아아 아아아아아
아아아아 아아아아

Translation:
Some day, a long time from now
These rays of light
Remember the trip
I took to be next to you
At a seashore far away
At the end of the sky somewhere
Keep the precious memories
Of you and me
A blinding vision of azure
You’re my sea
When I gave you my hand
Your dreams broke into white pieces
I’m planning on taking a long trip
A voyage deep into the sea
The smooth, silvery ripples
Take my body to you
A blinding vision of azure
You’re my sea
When I gave you my hand a white
Burst of your smile
You know, too, that I
Love you very much
Wrap me in your softness
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

2008-03-23T19:48:00.000-07:00

Here is the link of the complete korean FM. Happy listening ^^.
My suggestion is to choose Dream Cast as
it has a 98% reliable streaming...

http://radiotime.com/genre/c_152/Korean.aspx

2008-03-10T21:25:00.000-07:00

Food Wars throughout history.

++Due to some violence from the shows on the links above,i shall not showcase it on the blog, please click if you want to watch it. Its kinda cool and so artistic, though some may find it yucky.. But very cleverly illustrated on all the wars throughout history..

MAKE PEACE NOT WAR!

2008-02-05T00:11:00.000-08:00

Baby I just want to love you
You open up my heart... So I

알아요 믿어요 첫눈에 반한단 그 말
아침에 눈을 뜨면 어젯밤 꿈속에 그대
내게로와 입맞추던 그 느낌 그대로
아직 남아 계속 남아 온종일 그대 생각에 웃죠

So I pray for you (oh) so I
so I promise you (oh) so I
약속해요 모든것이
그대 라고 믿을께요 (그대라고 믿을께요)
will you come to me
나 조그만 더 그대 품에
오 사랑해요 그대 my love
나 언제까지나 이렇게

그때도 지금도 아직도 가슴뛰는 말
You love me 기다리죠 허전한 이 마음 (달래서 그대 곁으로)
혼자만의 욕심일까 때론 겁이나
그리움에 두려워도 이렇게 간절히 그댈 원하는걸요

(chorus)
So I pray for you (oh) so I
so I promise you (oh) so I
약속해요 모든것이그대라고 믿을께요 (그대라고 믿을께요)
will you come to me
나 조그만 더 그대 품에
오 사랑해요 그대 my love
나 언제까지나 이렇게

그대 뿐이죠 두근거리는 맘도
나 이렇게 so I love you
사랑한다고 늘 고맙다고 너무

(chorus)
So I pray for you (oh) so I
so I promise you (oh) so I
약속해요 모든것이그대라고 믿을께요 (그대라고 믿을께요)
will you come to me
나 조그만 더 그대 품에
오 사랑해요 그대 my love
나 언제까지나 이렇게
(2x)

So.. I love you..

2008-01-30T20:54:00.001-08:00

+Discover a new link+

For those who loves korean pop...like moi! :D

click ME

2008-01-27T09:58:00.000-08:00

27-01-2008

The time has finally arrived. Yeah!!

Pictures paints a thousand words. Please click on the photograph to see more moments captured.

2008-01-24T20:56:00.000-08:00

Sister Baptism - 27 January 2008.

My sister will be baptise this sunday!! I am so full of joy and gratefulness to God.

This is a great beginning of the year! I am so thrilled because this is my physical sister and its always a joy having your love one knows the truth and be baptise into the Kingdom of God.

I am so grateful for all of my good friends in church, you guys have been a great source of inspiration for my sis. She sees so much love and sincerity in the Church, truly what God mention before let your love for one another shows that eveyone may see God's AWESOME love.

Thanks you my friends (you know who you are!), not only you have love me so much, you shows the same love to my sister too. Thank you for reaching out to her, studied bible with her, spent time with her, tease and joke with her, bullied her, and inspired her. Without God and you all these will not have been easy.

But my sis also has such a soft, vunerable and obedient heart.

Thank you most of it to God. Thank you for your love and mercy for us. Thank you for forgiving us eventhough many times we fall short of your Glory, you still pick us up and hold our hands.

2008-01-22T18:48:00.000-08:00

Heath Ledger

What a tragedy. I feel so sad for him. He died at such a young age of 28.

He just completed his new movie "The Dark Knight" as Joker,which i know he will do a great job.

He was such a brilliant actor, very talented.

Its a great pity.

Life is so fragile.

2008-01-22T00:43:00.000-08:00

DEAREST ADELINE MAKEOVER

Click above link to see the transformation of our birthday girl.

DEAREST ADELINE BUDDIES

Happy birthday deh, I love you lots!!

2008-01-15T07:30:00.001-08:00

RETREAT ROCK IT 2 HARDCORE!!

++Miss them a lot++

++Devotional during retreat++

++Girls just wanna have funnnn!!++

2008-01-14T09:21:00.000-08:00

++2008++

Though the year has just started i am already feeling very occupied and overwhelmed. Maybe because i am thinking too much.. i am worried about what future holds...

This year my theme is Trust and Rely.. hehe ^O^ Its the first time i have theme and real resolution. I am going to be 25 soon, its a quater of my life!! (i dont know its just scary to be so old when many of those around you are just teens..15, 16..).

I guess as time past, there are more fears ahead. My parents health, my siblings future, my life partner(even though i never talk about it but well now that i am 25 i should be thinking more of it, I must get married!! hahaha-just kidding~ i am a little mad now).. kinda think of this year is a year where i need to be so close to God and rely on Him for strenght, and no matter what happens in life, God sets the path for me. Even if i am gonna be single for life i hope to have Paul's attitude of servanthood towards Christ!

This year my golden verse will be from Proverbs 3: 5-6

++Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will your path straight.++

And i must say God is really training me already in this two areas Trust and Rely. I need so much strength from you O God!

Oh God how i wish i am still 20!!...hahahaa

2007-09-27T02:33:00.001-07:00

Today is my Birthday!!!

And i am very happy. I am now 24!

yay~

And i am gonna celebrate later on at Timbre..hmm never been there before but sha's says its very nice... Anyway thanks to all my friends i wont be celebrating alone.

Thank you Lord for you unfailing love and abundance of blessing. And to all my friends, i love you guys lots!

2007-09-10T19:13:00.001-07:00

Swan Lake in town.

Wah!! This year swan lake comes again. I saw it this morning on the news. really want to watch but plays are always very costly. Haiz i can just see it through tv screen, perharps next year... they should let me know earlier that they are bringing swanlake to singapore this september. :( as least i can save up for it. Oh well...

My liking for Swanlake started way back during primary school. I loved reading Happy Mari Chan its a comic book about a young girl who loves ballet and becomes famous and one of the show that she performs is about swanlake. I wanted to be like her to know how to dance ballet.. but by my age its too late to learn.

But the story itself is so enchanting and i can spend hours looking at the comics and drawing her in ballerina's posture, sometimes i questioned can all this be done in reality?, all those rounds of 32 continuous fouettés, pas de deux and grand jete. Its a wow! So amazing!

I wish i am able to do it too! ^^

2007-09-06T18:54:00.001-07:00

Thought of the day:

The trouble of being punctual is, no one is there to appreciate it.

2007-08-23T10:43:00.000-07:00

Weee..

I am back! With my sister as well. I am so glad all the paperwork for my sis is over and now she is studying english, preparing her for poly. The next step of faith is getting her enrolled into Poly. But i think God will bless her, she is just such an angel. She had been very patient and obediet towards me, her zeal and love for God really challenge me to be spiritual as well. I think God is sending His guardian angel in the form of her.

I am in the way grateful to God for bringing us so far to this stage i know without His blessing and power i will not be where i am today. The christians have helped me to also grow in my character and teach me how to handle different situation in life, i am just grateful the way God work His way with my family and financially, i am actually quite proud of myself haha to be able to support someone at this age but all credits go to the Makers who make all this possible, Thank YOU God!

Trip back to Tegal (my hometown) was not as jolly. My dad fell ill and he lost 10 kg, he used to be really strong and fit yet now he is so thin until i can see the bones shape. It really burdens me and my whole family, there were lots of tears but as well prayers, as all my sisters go to church, we went on our knees to pray so much for our dad recovery, never seen him so weak before. But it did drew me closer to God for strenght, my family closer and i must say a renewal for my spirit.

Good news is, he is recovering , well at least that is what he said yesterday on the phone, though he refused to seek for medical treatment for he fear it will be too expensive and he does not want to know the truth, we have been urging him too but my dad is quite strong headed so now prayer is the only tool to help him. Please pray for my dad, i will be so grateful for your many prayers. :)

2007-07-29T19:20:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since i updated.

Some news about moi. I have been adjusting a lot better in teens. And get to know more people.The teens especially,and just totally inspired by their zeal for God and their passion. Need to learn a lot to get back my fire too.

Guess being an adult, sometime i need to concentrate on being mature and serious. Sometime i felt too old to being carefree and loud, I guess adulthood has robbed away some of my joy,i get too carried away with people expectation of who i should really be. But of course part of it i am to blamed. My "people pleasing" nature are still obviously my weakness. Heh.

But i am glad teens ministry has given me a new enviroment to breath in, to live in, i want to love and understand them better, especially,the girls under me, i just hope to love them so deep and care for them as my little sisters, especially when i see about their life and family situation, my heart really goes out to them, its really not easy.

Pretty excited that there are two korean girls that will be joining my small group. I dunno why this few months i have been exposed to more koreans hehe maybe God is telling me to take my hangul course seriously. But i am quite excited as now i can practice the language with them.

Oh yah! I am going back home to Indonesia, from the 9th august to 18th. Fetching my sister from Indo. Her student pass has been approved and i am very happy to finally be able to stay with my sibling. Now i can really play my role as an older sister, guess i have not been caring much for my family, so this is the time.

Ok, tats all for now, guess the next update will be when she (my sis) comes here.

2007-07-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

Have been busy as usual. hahaha when can i not be busy. But my life has been filled with lots of awesome stuff lately. So its good :)

A lot of people asked me, "So when is your sister coming?, really coming?"

My sis is really coming, in August, hopefully she can enters into poly. And the house is ready, so i will be moving in August 3rd. Yeah i am so happy cause i can sleep in a better mattress with a better environment.

Ministry have been encouraging as well, my three girls are studying the bible. (Efforts were put by many teen workers and i am extremely grateful to be able to see my girls grew from young teens to become a disciple.) The SEA conference have been helping me to be more outwardly focus and spiritually driven. Ah hopefully not only in good time does my fired up ness last.

Still need to be more fired up too, i guess now that i am in the teens needs more self denial.

Ok tats aboout the update.

2007-06-24T20:35:00.000-07:00

Spend some of the time with the Koreans during the SEA conference.

2007-06-14T17:51:00.000-07:00

Conference is finally here!!

I have always love the church conference! It is so faith lifting!

I have been really busy last week, going home at 11pm everyday! No time to even check email, what more writting on the blog. Hehe but this week is the conference and i will definitely not missed it.

I emailed my boss just to let him know that i have to go off on time and i come at 830am, just to make it fairer.

Yesterday message about the six principle of being a growing diciple is quite challenging, personally i am lacking in many area. I am glad they put inspiring worship service as one of the point, i do believe singing, prayer and great worship ambience really helps to create the mood of worship, maybe because i am the more feeling time..

Anyhow its very exciting also because i met a few old friends from Indonesia, and looking forward to fellowship with the christians from Japan and Korea. Today i am gonna stay over the weekend at a sister house who is housing a korean sister, must practice hangul with her.

Annyong Haseyo! Jonun Yanni Imnida. Mannaso panggap sumnida! kekeke.
Meaning: Hello! My name is Yanni. I am glad/ happy to meet you!

Looking forward for the worship today! I will come earlier to mingle around. lalala.

2007-05-23T00:01:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone.

Just in case you thought i was lost in Kuantan still.

Hah! I am back, but not blogging for now, life has been really busy for me.

The same with the rest i guess.

2007-05-04T19:28:00.000-07:00

I am off to Kuantan. See you all on wednesday. (*wave)

2007-04-26T18:51:00.000-07:00

Heh Its Karaoke time!

For those who likes this song on my blog, esp for KC. Enjoy!

05. Dangshineun Naneun Babo Imnida/ Stay

Nan baboyeosseotjjyo.

naega baboyeosseotjjyo.
huhwehaedo neujeotjjyo

aljyo dorikil sun eopjjyo
geudael bol su eopsseoyo

nado algo isseoyo
naega jeongmal jalmothaesseoyo

jeongmal mi-anhaeyo

geuttaen yaegihaji mothaetjjyo

neomu eoriseogeotjjyo
ijewaseo ireoke aetae-umyeo

nan yongseoreul bireoyo

Dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
jajonshim ttaemune
sulgwa sseun dambaeyeongiro

manggajigo itjjyo

dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
ajik saranghagi-e

haru jongil peongpeong

ulgoman itjjyo
geudaedo nado modu

babocheoreom

Geureojin marayo

dashi saenggakhaebwayo
uri eotteoke yeogikkaji

himdeulge wanneunde

dashi saenggakhaebwayo

huhwehashilkkeoyeyo
naega jeongmal jalmothaesseoyo

jeongmalmi-anhaeyo

geuttaen yaegihaji mothaetjjyo

neomu eoriseogeotjjyo
ijewaseo ireoke aetae-umyeo

nan yongseoreul bireoyo

Dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
jajonshim ttaemune
sulgwa sseun dambaeyeongiro

manggajigo itjjyo

dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
ajik saranghagi-e

haru jongil peongpeong

ulgoman itjjyo
geudaedo nado modu

babocheoreom

Geudae eopshin na hansungando

sal su eopsseoyo
meoril jallado sureul masyeodo

nunmulman heureujyo

Dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
jajonshim ttaemune
sulgwa sseun dambaeyeongiro

manggajigo itjjyo

dangshineun naneun babo-imnida
ajik saranghagi-e

haru jongil peongpeong

ulgoman itjjyo
geudaedo nado

modu babocheoreom

Ije deo isang manggajiji mayo.........

2007-04-22T19:31:00.001-07:00

Next big thing that is happening is, WE are going on a short holiday!!! yay... Hehe someone said why was i not as excited as my bestfriend about this holiday? The truth is i am so so so excited just that i forgot to blog about it.

Anyway if all permits WE (Sasha and I)~~eh quite exclusive wor~~ are going to Kuantan (YAY!!!!), we have paid for the ticket and hotel. And we are going to stay in Swiss Garden Hotel, heard from sha is very nice, actually my boss and her collegue recommend it too...

Will post the photoes when we come back...

Now news about my humble house:
I am settling in the new place quite comfortably. Except that at night i have disturbed my housemates sleep by coughing very loudly. They suspect i might get a bronchitis.

First few nights was terrible cause i keep coughing in the early morning and late night before i sleep. The cough was describe by my housemate "as if you are coughing your lungs out" and they have decided to get me one for my birthday this year... a new lung...yay! (duh)

Anyway in order not to disturb their sleep anymore i have decided to drink warm water in the morning and before i sleep. You may think whats the big deal. I HATE WARM water, it taste weird. I love cold water and i have always taken my water from the fridge nice and cold. But for the sake of my dear lung. I will just do that. Oh its so sad. And they said chilli will also cause some irritation as well...chilli??? Its a must in all my dishes hiks*...Ok enough of the drama.Heh.

2007-04-15T23:11:00.001-07:00

I have moved.

Good bye Chelsea Lodge.

Sunday we moved into the new place. Lots of packing and unpacking to be done. I am just glad everything its kinda settled, at least for these two months.

First two nights, i was not able to sleep, maybe is a new enviroment or the dust around me or invasion of personal space, i share the room wih two other girls, sisters. So i keep waking up about 7 am.

Which is very unusual cause i am a very deep girl, eh i mean deep sleeper. But good thing is i get to breath some fresh air in the early morning and spend sometime thinking about God and reading His Word. The air is really cold in the morning, i much prefer to be awaken by the warm sunlight but well that can only happen in Chelsea Lodge.

Guess i am used to having a comfy bed with cool airconditioner and fluffy comforter, now i am just sleeping on a very thin mr bean patterned mattress bought from nearby neighbourhood shop. And i can feel the wooden plank beneath my back. But this is good for me, i think in a positive light i get to be more discipline in the morning cause work place is no longer a few bus stops away and as well as thoughful and considerate to my fellow housemate cause of the small spaces we wil tend to bump into each other a lot.

I am a conflict avoider, not that i am proud of that. But in this kind of situation is good, cause i will tend to give in, not wanting to create tension in the house, anywhere this is temporary.

Good news is i think someone might just buy a house and i can stay with her..,yeah solve the problem for my sis accomodations. God is great and He always works things out!

2007-04-09T20:57:00.000-07:00

Some feeling just

could not be expressed out.

Lack of sleep, lack of inspiration,

lack of social life.

...

I need spiritual contentment.

2007-03-22T20:47:00.000-07:00

Its been close to a week. I have been busy.

Packing my stuff for the new place, been moving some stuff to the office too, haha temporary space in my locker.

Anyone has empty space that i can tompang my magazines??

Now counting down..3 weeks before i moved out of Chelsea. And work in the office has been getting busier nowadays, lots of deadlines to meet. Also feel spiritually drained. And i miss home, to think that this year i have not go home - its been two years. I miss the food that my dad cooks and as well as my family and just spending time with them and my old quite little town.

Glad its weekend soon. Maybe i will go to Lucky Plaza to have Ayam Penyet, one of the most authentic indonesian restaurant that i know of so far...kekeke ^^ Cheer myself up with some sayur asam and tempe!! Yummy with lots of blacan!

Btw today is my dearest little third sis birthday! The one that is coming to study here in singapore.

Happy 20th Birthday dearie. I love you so much. And bless your gentle, humble and kind nature. She is just such a lovely girl!

2007-03-18T20:19:00.000-07:00

Saturday,17-03-2007

Today the teens were having some hangout at Sentosa!. Its been a long time since i went toSentosa. Things really changed eversince Vivocity came. We took the train there, we were quite "suaku" looking around the train making lots of noise and going wah... oohhh... woooh...Hehe but it was pretty fun, ran on the beach, played wacko, and captured the flag.

It was rebecca birthday as well and i did the most horrible thing, that i can never imagine doing in the single ministry, i smashed her face with birthday cake and we drag her all the way to the sea. I hope she didnt get any BA. I was all wet as well... and the good news is i never planned to get wet so i did not even bring any spare clothes... wet and sandy and i got sunburned!

Sunday,18-03-2007

DD planned a farewell party for me. I feel so loved with all the sharings and got gifts ler...actually i was wondering, is it theu are celebrating my birthday in advanced? kkk i also got a crown of flowers on my head its so pretty...thanks to Zon she is so creative... wah!!! so happy.

Also felt after the sharing that i can do more in the teens ministry sometimes its really great to serve when you see people gets impacted and also just the great friendship that can be found after all the rejections and rebellions. All your hardwork seems like its nothing anymore compare to the joy of being appreciated. heh guess its my weakness i always want to be appreciated. Must remember i am doing all this for God and to serve him.

Anyway i felt really impacted on friday by what David Lim shared during our song devotionals. Dress and sing because God is the audience. Sometime i just need to always be reminded why do i go to Church? Its all about worships!

2007-03-16T23:03:00.000-07:00

Ok all have been confirmed!

He (The owner of Chelsea Lodge) has found a family that they(the agent and him) can conned to pay $1k extra for our beloved Chelsea. So we are moving out in a month time. (--")

Yesterday we went to view another place that will be our temporary place. Its a one room hdb flat. I have never stay in a flat before, yeah i am so looking forward to stay in one. Reason being :) there is always a mama shop next to the flats and i love mama shops ^^

The HDB is located at North Bridge Rd, just opposite Golden Mile. A lot of Thais here. Nothing wrong with that just that with my dark complexion they might mistake me as one too. Sawadeekaa...

There is no bedroom! Ha ha its really like a studio apartment, but i am so glad there is a working fridge as well as tv and.... to my delight, they have an indonesian channel. woohooo i am gonna enjoy staying there. Another great thing, i have a straight bus to work!! Yippeee

Another piece of good news, i may be able to enroll my sister to study here, i know poly is tough to get in so the other alternative is ITE and there are so many new courses in ITE, they surely are expanding. And the school fee is 1/3 of poly. Thank God for that!

2007-03-14T01:17:00.001-07:00

You Should Drive a Lamborghini

A true daredevil, you're always in search of a new rush. Clearly, you're a total speed demon... just don't get caught!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

wooooooo hooooooo!!

2007-03-08T23:22:00.000-08:00

We are gonna watch "I am a CYBORG but thats ok!"

Yeah... so excited! I have been looking forward to catch a show with deh. Its always fun watching comedy/ cartoons with her, because we laugh so loud in the cinema and make funny jokes on our own to add to those jokes kkk.

Even though i've received no good comment on this movie, but i will just try my luck. The news reviewed that its a flop. From a well known Movie Director that direct the Old Boy and Lady Vengeange plus high class, high ticker cost performer, Rain, people were expecting mega good movie to catch, but they were dissapointed.
The shows was taken off the cinema in Korea for just about 3 weeks showing.

Lets see tml my review...kkk ^^

Back from cinema...

ITS A FLOP! SIGH... but we have fun!

2007-03-07T18:52:00.000-08:00

We are moving out!

Someone is viewing the Chelsea Lodge today. This is the second time this week that the house will be viewed. The owner has raised the price from1.3K to 2K and to us that is really too expensive, so we rather look for a cheaper accomodation.

I really love Chelsea Lodge and i cant bear to part with it.
Been staying there for more than 3 years. Hope the next place that we will be moving to will be as nice.

2007-03-05T18:16:00.000-08:00

Today is a really BLUE monday.

I Forgotten to bring my office locker key so i have to go home during my lunch time, cause most of my documents are inside that locker. Good thing my house is just nearby, so i will just cook lunch at home.Hah...save money

2007-03-04T20:30:00.000-08:00

So many good movies these days.
I gonna catch all of them, even if it means spending my lunch money...ahhh there are just too many good shows.

First of all i wanna watch "I am a cyborg but that ok!" Its by Rain, not that i am really crazy about him, well...he is cute, but its also i think quite an amusing story. About two person and they are litellary mad, but they fall in love with each other. I guess its some kind of comedy, besides their website is super cool. Check this out.http://www.cyborg2006.co.kr/

But my poor lil' teens they are only 15 years old and the movie is NC16. They were so excited to watch as well, so it was quite dissapointing for them, but i can relate we all went through that phase once in our life.

And some other exciting shows, TeenageMutantNinjaTurtle (My favourite cartoon and they are going to make it into a life movie)!!, The number 23 (Jim Carrey!! My fav actor and he is going to play thriller ...how unsual but anything that has him starring, me am sure to watch 'em)Hannibal Rising i have seen all his series, am a fan of physcho show man! and Music and Lyrics by HUGH GRANT and DREW (Both my fav!!).. oh and one more..Dreamgirls

Gosh i will be broke this month.

2007-03-02T19:56:00.000-08:00

You Are A Fun Friend

You're the one who keeps your group laughing
And you've always got an idea for something fun to do
The party's not complete without you
And you wouldn't miss it for the world

What Kind of Friend Are You?

I am beginning to like these stuffs...kkk

2007-03-01T19:46:00.001-08:00

Today is a rainy day.

And my new pair of heels got wet. It always happens whenever i bought a new pair of shoes, the first day i wore it, the rain will come and clean the heels. They are already clean lar...

Today Ms Tan, my housemate is going to Thailand. Its kinda unsafe there, with all the terrorist stuff going around.

God please take care of her.

So i will be with Pilloe (the cat) till sunday

Hope he will be a good boy.

haaah...weekend is near!

2007-02-27T17:41:00.001-08:00

CNY is coming to an end, and i have gain a few pound from all the late night snacks.Its time for me to hit the runway.So my plan today is to go to east coast with my collegue and we are going to jog.

She wants to complete the journey from Mc Donald to East Coast Hawker centre and back...eh..i think i can only run till Hawker Centre and eat my dinner there...

Regret for eating too much Bakwa!

So we met about 815 pm to go jog. The last saturday i went with Celine but i didnt manage to complete my goal of reaching the Hawker centre, i stopped right in front of Jumbo. Haha not sure its because i was too exhausted or is it because of the thoughts of crab.

Anyway this time i wanted to meet my goal, and surprisingly i was jogging in constant speed. All the way till the Hawker centre, wooh the feeling was great.I met my goal!

I have always love this sport, because its cheap and effective. It also helps me to really strip away all my burdens and tiredness from the whole day at work and helps me to destress. It also helps me to focus, plan and decide on my priorities in my life. I think a lot when i am jogging :)

The great thing is also spending the time with my new collegue. After the jog we went to makan at the Hawker Centre of course i wanted to eat the satay beehoon, the long queue stall, but it was just my luck, tuesday is their rest day. I am sure it was just my luck because on monday lunch time we were planning to eat prawn noodles at one of the popular stall near balestier and once every month they close on one of the monday, and indeed that day is the day.(so much of pure coincidence, but its funny!lol)

Anyway i was talking about my collegue, ah yes, so we manage to eat some other things and chat until about 1030pm, it was so late and we didnt even realise. I had a fruitful time knowing her and ...i found out something...i can actually take a bus home from that hawker centre 197 and 43...Haiz i used to walk all the way back to Mc Donald just to take a bus home.

2007-02-25T17:45:00.000-08:00

My First Week as a teen worker.

Wow i never know that changes can be hard to adapt into. For those who dont know, i am actually moving ministry from the singles to be a teen worker in the teens ministry. (Here i am talking about ministries in the church not in the parliament kkk...)

The first week i was introduced to three little girls (all sec 3) which will be under my care. They are young, cute and sassy. Kinda remind me of the old days, when i was also in sec 4, no i was not cute and sassy, but just with the problems that they facing right now, exams and such.

The environment changes from the calm, collected adults to screaming youths. I was a little culture shock but then i used to be in their shoes before, but i am sure if i am as noisy as the teens nowadays.

So not only will i be a "jiejie", i will have some additional roles like; tuition teacher, advisor, aunt agony, dear diary, friend, listener, and maybe a shoulder to cry on.

Its not a bad way to go cause in the end i will be able to become a good older sister.

Till then...

2007-02-16T01:09:00.000-08:00

Feel like singing this song:

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY
EVEN MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY
EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY
GIRLI'M SO DOWN
WHEN YOUR LOVE'S NOT AROUND
I MISS YOU, MISS YOU, MISS YOU
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY

Bummer!

2007-02-15T15:46:00.000-08:00

May the year of PIG be a year:

Where you eat less bakwa.

Stay pink in health drink more cheehwa.

Lotsa of laughter shared among friends

and more angpaos in hand.

Happy New Year.

2007-01-31T18:17:00.000-08:00

Tips to make a perfect resume.

There are thousands of resumes that we had sent to so many company but to no avail. Perharps these might be one of the reason.

1. DO NOT WRITE AS IF YOU ARE SENDING AN SMS.

W Respect.

I hv sn de resume postd on e 16 of mth of may 06.
I m vy int 2 apply 4 de job n ws wondern if u ll hire me.
I ve lotsa exp in dis field n w 4yrs of werkin in dis line i thk i m vy suitable 4 de job.
W many thks,

2. NOT TOO MANY UNNECESSARY ATTACHMENT PLEASE

With consideration to my application i have attached some of the important documents for your reference :
a. My IC
b. My Parents IC
c. My Birth Certificate
d. My family and sibling birth certificate
e. HOPE Charity Certificate
f. Involvement in Line Dancing certificate
g. Participant in Singapore Idol Contestant number

3. TOO FRIENDLY

With all due respect my dear boss!!!!

Hi Boss, how have you been?. Oh i have been writing lots of resume this week.
I hope this time i can make it lar. Anyway i am so interested to work in your company.
Yah lar i think it will be very good for me to be able to meet you for coffee and lunch together to discuss further.

So can ah.. you call me lar. Anytime also can. Thanks ler.

So i hear from you soon ye?

Take care!
PEACE!

4. AHBENG VERSION.

Dear Sir

I have been working in wae laope offis for 3 months.
But he told me to go and look for anothel job. Walau e limpe really angry ah.. kanna treated this way by laope.
So anyway i see your offis oso not bad. A lot of mei ni.
So i expect you to call me on my pager ok! Latest i give you 3 days.
If you do not want to see pig head hanging on you office door you better call me.

Ok?? This is my last warning ah.
Please do not call the police if you know who you are dealing with.

Best Regards
Tay Ah Long

5. TOO PERSONAL.

Dear Sir ,

Hi Sir, how have you been? I hope you are fine. How is your children now?
I heard they went to the childcare near your house.
Must be very hard to balance between your work and family life.
How’s your wife? Is she fine? I am sure she is getting prettier by day.
And your dog. Do you have a pet sir. Its a joy having a pet.

Oh anyway i am suppose to apply for a job.

6. TOO SERIOUS AND LONG WINDED.

With my greatest respect to you,

With reference to Straits Times on 4th April 2006 Monday, in page 15 of column 7 of the CATS sections.
I saw that you are looking for a carpark attendant.
I am very interested to apply for the job in Marina Square , apart from the comfort of airconditioned,
there is also a straight bus from my home to MS so it will be very convenient for me
and also for the company as i can wake up at about 7am and still be able to reach there before 8am.

This job also i can foresee us being able to be best co-worker.
Maybe we also have the fate to be together. I can see ourself discussing over some of the importants
facts in the office and together nab those thieves lurking around the Carpark area.

I really hope for you to be able to consider me and feel free to call me.
But please call me after 6 pm if not right now i am working in another company and it will not be too nice
when my boss come and talk to me and you call if you know what i mean so call me after six, best time will be 720,
after i knocked off i normally went to grab my dinner so to not be interupted because it is bad for digestion.

Best Regards,
Chin Lo Sor

2007-01-24T09:35:00.001-08:00

Aloha

Happy new year everyone. I guess this has become a graveyard. Hmm i will try to write soon. Keep a look out yah. May change template too.

Just to let you know. I am doing ok :P

2006-09-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

Turning 23

In a few days time i am gonna be a year older.

I am having mix feeling. I dont even think of celebrating. I am kinda afraid to go through this stage. There is no excuse for me to be timid anymore. Nor to hide away from problems. Because its time to embrace the trying times. To fall and get up again, to be injured yet to nurse my own wound. Not to be a crybaby. I am an adult. An Ovaltine.

reflecting...

When i was in my teens i have always wanted to quickly move on to working life and earning my own money and spending it without any guilt.

Yet now looking back, i really miss those years where i dont have to care about paying my own rent, transport, food for my stomach. Life becomes so independant after being in a working world.

This year i am gonna be 23, its a year where everything needs to be serious(to me lar). I had lots of fun in my teens year, now its time to think of what i am gonna do with my careers and how to take responsibility to provide for my family.

Its hard wor. I am gonna be mature/lol/.

And a sudden news. I have tried to postpone my sister from coming to study till March 2007 thats when i thought i will be more stable...but two days ago, i called home and my parents have decided to send her over this october.

hmm... quite burden, cause i was thinking to myself "arghh..where to get so much money?", "will i be able to help her to study here and as well providing her for her daily needs...hah i guess its really relying from the Almighty for deliverence..."

Dear God, i need more than 24 hours a day.

ps: Anyway work has been better these few days... heh tats a good thing..better appreciate before the storm come again.

ok time to ..zzz...99

2006-09-15T11:30:00.000-07:00

I met Paul Two Hill on the bus this morning!

Haha i have actually lost interest in this Singapore Idols stuff. I loved the first season but after that it just got boring with this season contestants. But one particular person that i like in this season is yes none other than P2H hee... no not because he can sing, i think the only person who can sing properly is Hady, the rest are just based on looks and fans.

But i like Paul. I like his attitude and style. So when i saw him this morning, boarding the bus like two bus stops from mine, i was thrilled. Ohh means he stayed pretty near me..wooh..then he board the bus and went upstairs and our eyes met... hee not the sort of the romantic kind ah...hahaha just met then he turned around and sat in the frontest seat of SBS bus.

I was thinking to myself,"Should i ask a picture of him, an autograph?? But so paiseh".

It is because i sat about four rows from him and i am afraid everybody will think that i am nuts. Then i looked around the entire bus there were only Ahpeks so i just took my hp out and approached him. So i got his photo. Hahaha.

But life goes on yah. I mean i feel sad for these contestants, they were given 5 minutes of fame and then out. So what is going to happen after that? Nothing! They were just using these bunch of kids to earn money from all those smses...tsk tsk. Media and its influences...

So anyway. For Paul is back to normal life again. Taking the bus, meeting his friends, sleeping on the bus. Wonder when will the novelties fades away. Hmmm.

Btw Jasmine is out.

Think Jonathan will win. Hady is better of course, but just look at Orlinda and Sylvester.You know what i mean.

2006-09-13T02:00:00.000-07:00

Cechk Tihs Out Is Tihs cool or waht

2006-09-12T10:40:00.000-07:00

Guess having an internet at home, doesnt make it necessarily easier to blog.

This week has been a week of storming. I have gotten quite a handful of freelance jobs from different people that i know from workplace, church, and even internet. Been a little braver to meet with strangers and shared with them about my experiences as well as convinced them to hire me..haha

Thats why i felt like i have neglected so many other parts of my life. Being a disciple we are called to be one to love. I find myself having no enough time to show my care, love and energy to the different individuals. I have so much on my mind that its gonna burst out. I think i need to jot it down. Anyone who can handle stress well please drop me a message.

And now i am learning Hangul. haha just for extra information. Learn by books. Hmm..but now i also need to give priority to the bible test coming soon wor.

Somemore its on my birthday..haha sianz.

2006-09-04T00:18:00.000-07:00

BLOG FROM THE GRAVE

hi everyone. that was just one dark humor.hahaha. Ok ok not funny (-_-'").

Anyway i am very happy to announce that from tonight onwards, i can blog everyday.

yay!

I went to Comex this afternoon and gotten myself a nice wireless USB adaptor. So now i can connect to the internet even at night. And hopefully with that a more updated blog.

Hee...

So anyway, been caught up a lot in work. A little pressurised with family issue. Lock up in a cave. Yah sometimes i thought only guys went to their caves, but personaly i love a little time just by myself. So it was good and now i am less occupied with work and things are getting better with regards to my plan for my sister's study here, though not really finalised but at least i managed to talk to my parents and told them honestly about what's been bugging me.

On a sadder note, my bestfriend is recovering at home. Lil Miss Muffin. Poor gal she needs to be homebound for about two months??.. yeah..but on a brighter note she can gets all the rest she needs and more time to study for the Big Bowl. Yep so ciayo my dear!

Ok for all who have visited my grave. I am sorry to tell you that i have reopen it again for visit. Ok better get some sleep now. Its been a tiring day walking around at Comex. Today last day though..sigh..hope everybody got the chance to go.

Good night.

2006-08-02T13:30:00.000-07:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Words of Affirmation:		8
Acts of Service:		5
Receiving Gifts:		5
Physical Touch:		2

Take the quiz

2006-07-26T16:15:00.000-07:00

2006-07-24T17:07:00.000-07:00

B O R E D Z O N E

Ten things i feel like doing now.
1, Go home and take a nice long shower.
2, Throw away my office computer an never come back tomorrow.
3, A nice haircut and hair color.
4, A long massage or spa treatment.
5, Fly to Paris.
6, Watch all the romantic movies in the cinema.
7, Eat KIMCHI.
8, Sleep for 24 hours.
9, Nobody call me about anything for a week.
10, Be at Phuket.

i am super sian today.haizzzzz....

2006-07-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

FOOL

She stares at the horizon.
At the sky that darken.
Finally realising.
A fool she has been.

No more thoughts of wonders.
Nor drowning in fantasy.
All is just a dream,
come back to reality.

She had been too naive
Fell again and hurt herself
Giving in too soon,
Giving out broken.

2006-07-18T13:00:00.000-07:00

My heart ached to know that you are leaving.
There is an emptiness within
that dig deep into my soul.
Longing.
My body tremble in confusion.
My mind control these mixed reactions.
I have to write this down.
I do not want to be drowned.
With such a short period of time.
You are now entangled in my life.

How can it be.
It should take time.
Maybe its just a sudden rush of feeling.
That will go away tomorrow morning
But right now,
I just have to write it down.

I don’t want to see you go.
I will never see you anymore.
Not now maybe in the future,
but hardly possible.
We are living in two different world.
Two different time.
Two different expectations,
reality hits me.

I am robbed.
There is one missing piece that you have taken with you.
I am feeling it.
A little void but its prominent.
How can I lived my day?
You have disturbed the routines of my life.
I really am hoping
that I will not be missing you.
Too badly.

Tomorrow when I woke up,
I hope not to be thinking of you.
Not to be hoping for you.
Not to be missing you.
Not to be looking for you.

Farewell my friend.

~yanni~

2006-07-12T10:08:00.000-07:00

AFTERMATH OF WORLDCUP

Not as if i watched all the entire worldcup thingy. Heh. And i must admit i like Zidane only during the period of the Final. So... haha actually i am not really affected by the whole affair thingy. But a thought came to me, i was just wondering is there really a withdrawal effect of worldcup?

Like waking up at 3am religiously and turning on the TV only to find that the show is no longer foot ball but another episode of The Days of our Lives. Or turning on the radio, checking on the newspaper for any news about the match. Though i only stayed up for a match between France and Italy, it has somehow affected me badly.

Somehow i had these syndromes.

I find myself liking the game. I used to find it a real boring match and i have always wondered why the guys like it so much?? The only exciting moment is scoring goals. And if at the end of the match it's still 0-0, it will be really SUPER sian.

But i think the key is to find your favourite team, or in my case, a player that i can glued my eyes on and the match will not be boring...haha is that why ladies watched football and supported mostly, Beckham and some cute japanese or korean football player?

So i have decided to support...REAL MADRID. hahaha one reason only Zidane is there.

And i am so ever very the GLAD that he got the Golden Ball Award. hee

2006-07-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

Zidane s Red Card - FRANCE lost to ITALY in penalty 5-3

I was devastated and in shock after the match this morning, 5.20am.

It was such a tough match that requires extra times and still end up in 1-1. I wasnt really disappointed with the fact that France lost to Italy over one unlucky shot. Yeah Penalty kick, its all based on luck. Poor guy with number 20,~~I forgot his name~~he didnt make it.

But what got me really devastated was the fact that Zidane, my man, in the last few minutes of the extra time, received a red card. All happen in the fits of anger. Why? Why must this happen to the greatest midfielder?. Why must this happen to Zizuo. I was so upset and at the same time felt a lot for him.

During the whole 90 minutes, he was really cool. Even though he injured his shoulder and leg, he still keep his cool and play. I don’t know what got into him. It was so sudden the whole butthead situation.

He was not given the chance to even receive the medal instead was sent away as a punishment. I heard after receiving red card, you need to watch the whole match in a room. This world cup was his last yet he couldnt finish in victory. I saw from his face, a lot of disappointment and regret. There goes his title of the being the Man of the Match, or The star of this year world cup.

I am having some headache now, wanted to just forget about this event, but everywhere I go, internet, blogs, radio and tv. Everyone is discussing about this event.

Here a little articles to describe:

What an occasion the 18th Final produced with excitement at the start and incredible drama at the end as Zidane, on his farewell to the game he has graced for so long with his graceful skill, was shown the red card. On it went to a penalty showdown and five unerring Italian spot-kicks delivered them the title of world champions, with David Trezeguet the luckless player to miss. With Fabio Grosso converting, his country edged one Trophy behind Brazil in the pantheon of FIFA World Cup winners.
Zidane will remember this night for as long as he lives. France had promised to repeat their success of 1998 for their retiring captain and only he will know what possessed him when he thrust his forehead into the chest of Marco Materazzi. Zidane had to go, accompanied down the tunnel by the glare of thousands and thousands of flash bulbs and the tears of the legions of French supporters.(Reuters)

2006-07-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

VIVE LA FRANCE!

Dont ask me why i like France.~~I am gonna tell you now~~Starting out with, liking their culture, like their Eiffel Tower, the street walk in Paris, their beautiful old buildings, the people, the sharp nose,the wine, their food, their costume, Marie Antoniette, their fashion walk,their creme bouloe(hope i spell correctly), their language, and many many more. Its my dream country and i hope to spend my holidays there..one day.

so anyhow...

I woke up today and hear the great news. My favourite country WON 1-0 against Portugal and entering the Final which will be on monday morning 3am.

Actually i was really upset for not catching the match... i thought they will be playing on Thursday 3am which i literally thought today at 3 am. I forgoten that a day will pass after entering the 12 midnight..duh..such a goner. Very very upset. But good thing France won. Yoohoo.

Yeah i will be watching the Final then. It was quite a dissapointment for me to hear that Germany lost to Italy and i thought that i will then give it a miss.

Not that i never really supported France but i was actually surprised that with Brazil, Argetina and Germany (supposedly i thougt this three are the greatest team in football)not even making it to semi final, my France can.

Yep so i will sacrifice my beauty sleep, for once and join the guys in cheering up for France.

If France lost i got to buy my collegue one chicken rice for lunch, so hope that France will not dissapoint me.Hee.

Anyway go all the way! ZIDANE!! He is AWESOME.

2006-06-24T12:42:00.000-07:00

MY COMPUTER IS DEAD

i found this notice on my pitch black monitor yesterday night:
Window can not opearate due to this following missing or corrupt file: \system32\hal.dll

i so sad. i just bought the PC not so long ago ler...

sob..how can this happen to me.. i know nothing about computer at all..the worst news is ..i ge khiang act smart lor and reinstall everything back to factory setting...not only the computer still show me black face, all my data were gone...all my photoes and files and cute animation and ~~my fb photoes~~ were all but pirture memories...

What should i do?? such a dummy.

So this morning i am really distraught by it. Actually i should not act too rash about it. I should first of all called IT people. Then follow their wise advises..sigh no turning back..

One more regret... knowing i put partition on my harddisk i should have save my work in the D drive and not C...

Ok guys out there, if u are just as ge khiang as me. Follow my 2 cent worth advise:

First and foremost do not do anything even if it make sense to you.

Second called IT professional, not that you should trust your friends skill,just precaution.

Third get some sleep because when you were awake you just cant stop thinking about how silly you are for deleting unfamiliar files.

Fourth Create a partition in your harddisk, dont ask me how..hor just asked the IT guys.

Fifth backup your files in D drive.

i am now as sian as sibeh sian..

2006-06-19T11:47:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG HAS BECOME AN OFFICIAL ANSWERING MACHINE.

yan2sian: Oh i tried this before, but i guess there some java script problem from my blogskins script that apparently illiterate to the blogger main comment page?? if you know what i mean...haha sigh!.. i am an IT dummy.

yan2anynomous: hmm test?? are you trying to help me recover my cbox (smiley)

yan2mari: How to reinstall? will tat means that all the comments wil be gone?? Oh no...

yan2sha: high five!

bummer.

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ANNOUNCEMENT: Today is a very important day! The 19th June 2006. My sister High School Final Exam result is out! I am hoping for a very good news. Keep praying.

2006-06-16T11:30:00.000-07:00

sigh... i still cant see anything

yan2anynomous: Yeah its weird huh...

yan2n30: aww..dun be envious, spend time also good mah, build you up spiritually hee (smiley)

did any of you who owned Cbox has this problem??

oh yeah i got a skype account, add me if you have one too, at least this is an official chat room that my office allowed us to use (if you know what i mean)

yanni@vendermac.com.sg

happy weekends guys!

2006-06-15T12:30:00.000-07:00

Its weird. I cant see any comments that was posted on the CBox.

But anyway for those who leave messages behind, thanks a lot.I have to go to the main website to check, lucky i am not that bad in IT haha..smart gal always has her way.(ting* light bulb)

So anyway a little outdated but nevertheless..

Yan2Sian: Thanks for the concern, my folks are save and sound.Its true life is so fragile, better treasure them while we have the time.

Yan2Mari: Thanks mari for the encouragement, i will sister! Hugs*

Yan2Jen: Oopss i cant see the Cbox, until my smart brain figured out today..after like 2 weeks of wondering why there was no text in my Cbox, i finally saw you fixed an appointment with me.. ahh so sorry jen so...i will called ya soon :) thanks for the initiativeness(is there such words??)tee hee...

There...

Anyways i had a fun weekend. There was a conference in our church and one of the sister from Japan stayed at Muffin's room. So Muffin invited me to join her for hangout with Yasuko.

We went to Little India on monday evening for dinner, at this place called Jaggi's. It served northern Indian Cuisine, very nice i must say, but quite costly for me.

Follow by dessert at one of the corner shop in little india.guess what ...yah something which a japanese never had in Japan. Rochor Beancurd. She likes it. I like it too, by this time it was almost 11pm...

still it was too early to end the night so we bring her to ~~esplanade~~ Geylang for Durians feast. I thought she would hate it because of the pungent smell, but to my surprise she loved it. I conclude that only "ang-mohs" hates them.

Anyways here's two pics of the hangout.

2006-06-09T16:30:00.000-07:00

helooo... i am here again. Just to let ya al know that i am doing fine.

Busy as usual, think i have sold my soul to my Boss hee...

A little concern about the disasters in my hometown, it taking many lifes and i am just so worried for my family. Please be praying for them and as well as for many people to be save from this disaster.

As for myself, i am trying to forget the past and the what if attitude and to trust God. Its hard when life is not within your control, you dont know where it will lead next, but everyday as i put my trust more in God rather than my own plan and desire, each time i can see little sweet things or even near victories that emerge slowly. Its like a glimpse of a big miracle and that is exciting. :)

Perharps some of you were puzzled, neverthemind, its not meant to be understood clearly.Perharps one day. But to put it plainly i am trying to have a Godly sorrow rather than worldly attitude about my life. I am trying to be obedience to God and to choose the path of righteousness.

Anyway, just in case many do not know...My little sister (yes my physical sister) will be coming to Singapore this July. And i am so excited to be able to have another family member here. It just makes so much difference. She is gonna take an english course here all fully sponsored by me (T.T b u r d e n) haha a little but i will trust God and if its His plan it will work jsut fine :)

Sooooo... when she comes, please be super friendly towards her :) and teach her many ~~singlish~~ english. And great thing is she asked to be included into our church here..So exciting another disciple in the making in the family.

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. Isaiah 40:31

2006-05-30T16:15:00.000-07:00

Today i managed to get my life back on track. Its so tiring to be on a rollercoaster ride. I have been angry and frustrated those weeks. I dont treasured my friends,i dwelled in my own sorrow and self pity.

Those weeks were tough. Especially when God is not very near in sight. I have been focusing too much on my own feeling, emotion and life busyness. I didnt hear that soft whisper instead its my boss voice that had been ringing in my ear and haunt me in my sleep. Basically work was a total nightmare. I lost all my personal and social life. I lost my reason of living righteously and spiritually.

Why do we have to do all these? Constantly overcoming problems and emotions. I am tired with these battles for survival, i am tired for getting so much responsibility, so much problems in my life. Its true when we are poor there is less to worry, when we are simple, life is not as complicated.

But who am i to complain huh? I am but dust, i am but flower thats lives one day and wither the next. I do learn that problems is there, always, its whether we want to see it as problem or medicine that will help us to grow, cause no doubt problem is painful but at the end of the day we grow stronger.

I am forcing myself to believe in this. Everyday, that God sees me through.

Am i embracing God's plan for my life? I have to continue meditating that "God plan is to prosper us and not to harm us, to give us a future and a hope and this hope will not fail us"

How beautiful are your Words O Lord.

Help me to submit to your authority.

Trust. Obey. Rely.Hope

You never fail me.

2006-05-26T19:35:00.000-07:00

side note: Sasha might like this or hate it..haha becos i featured her photo. But i think she look sweet so i hope she is ok with this.

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My Dear Muffin

Hey gal, i just want to thank you for the friendship that we have.

You are a friend who never fail to be there for me.

When i was sick you cook fish porridge for me.

When i was down you gave me my favourite chocolate.

When i am heart broken you give me a call.

When i am "dao" you scold, whack me, and cut me to pieces.

hahaha

When i need someone to laugh with

When i feel alone

When i am bored

When i am sad

happy

you are there

somewhere, somehow, through blog or phone

or conversation

I appreciate all the fun we did together.

You are a genius

You are witty, evil sometimes...hee

You are loyal

You care and serve

Proud to see you grow in leadership

Caring and loving people

Thanks for always being

real, kind, honest, out of yourself

when you are with me

I felt really treasured by you

and assured

Love you my friend

you know i do

May our friendship continues to grow

and keep each other in touch.

Happy Birthday.Sorry its a little late.

2006-05-16T00:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Muffin

Muffin is a very special girl. But before I write my usual nice encouragements let me give you a few tips on what to get for her birthday. (lol) Since she refuse to give other wishlist beside the 1 millions dollars(well at least vic is getting her a million rupiah instead..still is very generous of her) and many has asked me…well sash that proves how well loved you are by many J

Muffin aka Sasha Lee will love to receive these for her birthday:
(uh..some might not really true so you still have to double confirm with her ya?)

1, Fantasy Books, Spiritual Bookd, Bible, Comics like Cavin and Hobbes, Fruit Basket..etc
2, VCD, DVD, CD of all kinds.(only English, Chinese, French, Japanese and animations)
3, Chocolates
4, Umbrellas (pretty, max length 15cm, light weight, less that 20grams)
5, ~~Gold~~ Silver Jewelries (made of angels, ribbons, shiny crystals (tiny ones)esp good if it comes from Tiffany & CO )
6, pretty bags for going out
7, shoes (any kind, from slipper to work shoes haha)
8, Flowers (if you really must get one. Get her a bouquet, unless you dun mind her chucking that one stalk in her bag). But normally better don’t buy lar
9, Cards, pretty cards, hand made cards…with lots of nice encouragements.
10, Hand made gifts. (Sincerity, she will definitely appreciate it)
11, Treat her to nice dinners.

to be continued later after lunch hee...

2006-05-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

Just got back from JB last night.

feeling very tired right now...cant wait to head home and sit in Bible study.

last Thursday we decided to have a small group hangout at one of a sister's house at Yishun. (finally i can get the group together to do something relaxing and fun) Since she will only reach home at about 10pm i went to Mylene's place to have spaghetties for dinner. She is a wonderful cook, though she claimed "anyhow" dump everything in, it still taste as wonderful.Hee!

Then we make our way to BH' place at Yishun, i borrowed two vcds and bring a set of nail polishes for our girly hangout. So we watched Saw2 and Sky High. Both movies very entertaining.The first was bloody though.Hah but i like. So we had a sleepover cause the next day is Vesak and we need to go temple "pai pai"~ just kidding

Friday we woke up and was greeted by the smell of ~~fresh brewed coffee~~ and toasted tuna and cheese sandwich... heavenly.. All done by wonderful host BH. Then we proceed to do our quiet time together. It feels like the old days when i used to do QT in school(TP) with the sisters and brothers after devoes followed by breakfast at the design canteen... ohh the malay rice is soooo nice..yummy.

After which we proceed to JB. 10am-12pm QUEUE at custom...it was packed like Sardine... Everyone was sticking to each other some accidentaly, some purposely... (_ _"')

After the horrifying ordeal, we took our lunch at Holiday Plaza. One of the sister decided to have her hair permed.. very nice i must say.

The rest of us were so into one of the shop that is selling super cheap t-shirt worth only RM10. This t-shirt you can print anything on it, any characters, "branded" logo, they have a wide range of designs to choose from.. haha those interested can go JB with me...haha i fall in love with the shops there ...feel like the malaysian dont look down on you when you go to their shops, even though at the end of the day you didnt manage to get anything after trying out ten t-shirts. They still smile at you. So no pressure in shopping.

We end of with a awesome dinner just four of us...i must confess we did fall into debauchery(God forgive us) haha too much food but couldnt finish them.Four of us we only spend RM 55. cheap right? And its a seafood dinner with prawn and stingrays and oysters...

Its an awesome Vesak Day. Holidaying in JB.

2006-05-10T11:30:00.000-07:00

Take the book next to you, go to page 18 and quote line 4:
"these hand drawn icons and are as essential as they are beautiful."

Reach out as far as you can with your right arm - what can you grab?
My office mega sharpener.

What was the last TV-Show you watched?
Yesterday, i watched Chinese News on Channel U at 11 pm (i dun understand it in anyway...My housemates turned to that channel)

With the exception of youre computer, to what are you listening at the moment?
Radio, chinese station 9.33fm.

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
This morning. Taking a bus to work.

What did you do before answering this questionnaire?
Was doing my project, got bored so went to read blogs.

What are you wearing at the moment?
Green army patterned shirt and grey rugged pants, with grey converse shoes.

Did you dream last night?
I dream everynight. But yesterday i couldnt recalled the dream...

When was the last time you had to laugh?
This morning, over the commotion in the office.

What occupies the walls of the room, in which you are currently sitting?
Lots of animated characters and sailormoon's pictures.

Did you see something strange lately?
A collegue brought a bird that he rescued this morning. The bird was attacked by crow, the bird is beautiful. Her feathers has many colours, the purple is reflective and the fur around her neck like black velvet. Amazing yah...but weird. Some strange breed, her beak is unusually long.

What do you think about this questionnaire?
Not so exciting, but i am bored... will do lar.

What was the last movie you watched?
Firewall-Harrison Ford starred in it. Its pretty good, the best thing, its FREE and its GOLD class...wow, each ticket worth $25 i got a pair, courtesy of my dear and generous collegue.

What would you buy if youd be rolling in money?
Set up a free organisation to shelters homeless people. Then some nice materials things

Tell something about yourself, which I dont know yet.
I supposed to have an older brother, my mum had a miscarriage.

If you could change one thing at our world, what would that be?
Humans to be contented in their life.

Do you like dancing?
I like, but i cant dance.

George Bush
hmm...no relation with him..no comment

If youre first child was a girl, how would you call it?
Ah girl..lol maybe emily, candice, kirstin.

And if it was a boy?
Ah Boy..haha seriously never really think of it... yet.

Would you see it as a possibility for you to emigrate?
yes, i would love to go Paris.

What would you tell God reaching the heavens gate?
Thank you God for going through all these with me, without you in my life i may not be able to finish the race, i am so happy i made it, can i see your Kingdom now?

Five people you want to answer this questionnaire:
those who is free haha

2006-05-08T18:30:00.000-07:00

when there is nothing much to write, its good to look around for some inspiration next blog.hee hee i took this from mari...(sorry without permission)

Maybe I should quit my job, because its taking away much of my joy.

I love sappy chinese songs like yue ding and duo shi ni and korean dramas right now.

I dont understand why is there so many boundaries and unresolved worries in my life

I lose when i am temperamental and upset, it affects everyone else around me.

People say I’m joyful and chirppy. But sometimes i cried after nightmares and cry to sleep listening to sad songs.

Love is forgetting the past, forgiving those who've hurt us before, loving first and never expecting returns, love is when i am happy if he has chosen the one he loves, though it means; not me, love persevere and love understand, love also mean surrendering but also clinging onto Him, love means able to be the "bad guy" for the good of the other party.

Somewhere, someone is cooking my favourite char kuay teo and thinking of me.

I will always be there for you.

Forever is being with the one you love

I never want to get, hurt, fearful, discourage, self pity, emotional(too bad..it will only happen when i get to Heaven)

I think the current US President is having a meeting now.

When I wake up in the morning, i will be currently greeted by Guang Liang's melodious voice and it will always be my favourite song that will be repeating to also act as my alarms.

I get annoyed when i am trying to cook and there were more than two people in the kitchen and they are not doing anything useful rather than asking the usual "Dya need any help?" and stand there staring at you cooking. (it get on my nerve, always!)

My dog is no longer with me. He drownedduring one of the flood in my home town(indonesia) saddest thing is my sister thought of using my name for the dog so they will always remembered me. Good thing they did not, i may end up having the same fate.

My cat is not fully mine. But i love him a lot.

Kisses are the best when its on my wedding day.

Tomorrow is another boring day at work. sigh.

I really want lots of yummy food now, but not gaining the extra kilos. I am depressed!

2006-05-02T12:16:00.000-07:00

Wow this May Day was truly awesome!

Today, my best friend went steady. Wow.. i am so super excited and thrilled for her. Just a month ago one of my sister went steady and that really warmed my heart, this time its my bestfriend! I am super happy for her.

Congrats Ling a Ding a Ling!

She is super awesome sister that i 've known eversince the campus day. Many will agree with me that it will not be hard to replace 1 Corinthians 13 passage about love with Ling's name. She is patience, slow to anger, she is kind, she does not boast. She always persevere, always hope, always trust. She never fail to love anyone. Her nickname should be Barnabas, The Son(in this case daughter)of Encouragement.

She is even challenge not to be too nice, cause people will take advantage of her. Ling is super cute, lovable and thoughful. Despite her many challenges in life, she is always full of smile and laughter. Life is not fair to her but she embraces it. Though we seldom share or spend lots of time together, deep in my heart is still a best friend, i am so lucky and blessed to have her in my life.

She is always so encouraging with all her lovely cards, its always done with great creativity and diligency. Whenever she couldnt sleep at night she will do something for someone. Not to herself. We are all known sometime to struggle with selfishness but i have never seen her being selfish with her time or love. Even the most difficult person to love, she is able too.

Truly Ling you are such a gem. A very rare and precious. Its awesome to see you finding your happiness and Gary is awesome as well! I am so happy for both of you. I can see his love for you is deep and sincere. And i believe this man can help you in your walk with God and spirituality.

I cant wait for many great love stories from you :) (giggles).

I love you Ling. I am so happy for you. God is truly faithful and encouraging. Right Gary? (wink)

Again i say, Gary please take good care of my lovely sister! (lol)

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Wow truly east is being so fruitful in these area...just within two months three couples went steady...there is hope... there is hope..~~fengshui is good...hahaha~~

just kidding guys!

2006-04-28T13:05:00.000-07:00

This is a very inspiring flash clip. Click to watch.

2006-04-26T15:40:00.000-07:00

hee ya everyone!

I am back from Hongkong! Yep quite a fruitful trip there. Walk a lot. Lucky i was equipped this time with a solid sport shoe (Last year i had to soak in hot water for an hour at the end of the day for continuous two nights..no kidding! with blistters because i was wearing high heels).

Anyhow, we really comb the whole tradeshow's halls. We practically walk through every stall, my boss is very kiasu...typical lar

May not have time to update today, but just write in, cause its seems like people are blogging more and more :), i mean brothers like kevin, melvyn and even alex is blogging more and more.(wow..brothers now can be quite expressive yah? Tot only Dewey is different hee hee)

In order to prevent my blog being classified as one of the dead blog and may get a receipt from Mari to pay for my own gravebox, i better jot down something.

Today i blog.

there...